Day 17: Waiting for Bed
You guessed it: this is my bed, and I’m on my way there. Seriously, I’ve been exhausted these last few days working full time at the greenhouse and painting in the evenings. I’ve been stressing myself out instead of enjoying the time I decided to dedicate to painting daily. But today that changed. The amount of hours in a day didn’t change, my hours at work didn’t change, but today I had a change of heart about the daily paintings. I remembered why I’m doing this (not to see just how much stress I can take..) but because I honestly love to paint something that I see which seems to somehow express my inner landscape.These last few days I’ve been laboriously suffering with the paintings until the wee hours and jumping out of bed in the morning with the thought of how long my day is going to be and wondering how I’ll get it all done. I haven’t been telling you any of this because I wanted to seem like I can handle this whole situation and that I somehow know what I’m doing, as if I already had painting figured out, ha!In painting my bedroom tonight I realized that there will never be a day where painting is all figured out, otherwise it’s not really painting. Every painting is it’s own little world and has it’s own life which calls for different tools and thoughts and eyes every time. All there is to do is to be open to see what’s really there and not what I think should or could be there, not how I already know to mix paint, but to try something new that could fit the mood and situation. It also seems to help for me to somehow be attached to the thing I’m painting in some way, that it have some meaning to me, weather it’s psychological (bed!) or intellectual (I like the composition or the juxtaposition of colors or contrast of light and shadow).Well, here I am exposed to you. This is the point and the heart of this project: to make paintings and share them with you. My insight today is that in order to make a successful painting I need to be there fully, like in the moment and engaged with the subject. I like the mood of this painting, it’s cozy, like being in my bed.You can buy this painting here https://kellymedford.com/works/404018 or view other paintings from the project here www.kellymedford.com/works. All paintings measure 6×8″ and cost $100 (+ $15 shipping).You can share this project with friends and family, the more the merrier! To subscribe to the newsletter click here https://kellymedford.com/email-newsletter or you can follow the blog posted daily at www.kellymedford.blogspot.comThank you for following the project and for all of your feedback. I look forward to hearing from you soon.